I found out that my beloved 16 year old cat MotorMouth had either stomach or intestinal cancer. I made the heartbreaking decision to have him put to sleep to end his pain and suffering. It was by far one of the most painful decisions I have ever had to make. The emotional pain and heartbreak seems to be more than I can bear. This is made all the more difficult by the fact that I am feeling these feelings while sober. This is the first time I have ever done so and boy, does it hurt like a bitch.
However I will say that I feel as though I am honoring the memory of my precious best friend by being fully present for these feelings of grief and loss. My memories of him are all I have left therefore they are priceless.
Rest in eternal peace, my dear sweet MoeMoe. I love you and will miss you desperately.
