21 months

I recently celebrated 21 months of sobriety from my love and sex addiction. I look forward to each monthly anniversary that I have because I know that moves me farther and farther away from the madness that was my life when I was in active addiction. Also, I have another milestone to share, one that I reached today: one year sober from alcohol. I am extremely proud of both of these milestones because I am finding a reservoir of strength that I never knew existed. One year ago, I had a particularly bad experience after becoming incredibly intoxicated and doing several things that went against my morals and values. It was the day after that I decided to abstain from alcohol as well.
In regards to my love and sex addiction, I was triggered earlier this week by an unexpected source. While I did not deviate from my goals and I was only moderately triggered, it was still a valuable experience in that I learned how insidious and sneaky this addiction can be. The weirdest part is that you would think that after 2 years of sobriety, a trigger wouldn't affect me at all but as anyone who knows anything about addiction can attest to, sadly it does not work that way. I was tested but I resisted and I feel that I emerged even stronger.
One last bit of insight that I wanted to share was that I recently had the opportunity to talk to a couple of other women about the fathers of their children and how horrific these men have treated both them and their kids. During this conversation, I came to a startling conclusion: even though I do not particularly care for my son's father, at least he has never abused nor put my son in extreme danger. I can trust that when my son is with him, he is being adequately cared for and he is loved. I feel extremely grateful for this.
~Love, gratitude, patience, and God! 💓~