Showing posts with label getting stronger everyday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label getting stronger everyday. Show all posts

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Update

Instead of posting yet another article, I have decided to post an update on how I have been doing in recovery. I am still going strong with not dating, having sex, or engaging in intrigue with random men in search of the aforementioned things. In September, it will be 2 years since I have been officially single; that month being when my most recent qualifier so casually and cruelly dumped me over the phone. Honestly I can't believe that I, the one whose love addiction was so strong for over 20 years, has been alone and actually happy during this period of time. I am the most content and at peace now with my life than I have ever been. Of course I get lonely and I miss intimacy and human touch but overall I couldn't have made a better decision for both myself and my son. I have made a decision to hold off on dating again until I am finished with grad school which will be in December 2021.
I am currently working full time, going to my MSW classes, doing a 16 hour per week internship, maintaining my home, and spending time with my son. I barely have time to breathe let alone blog. I have posted an entry on this blog every single day for the past 610 days but I have decided to discontinue this. It takes time and energy for me to even post the articles that I do and while I find the content to be immensely fascinating and helpful, I didn't create this blog for that purpose.
With that being said, I will continue to post about my recovery journey and struggles that I continue to have regarding the daily battle against my addiction. But I have come this far and I will continue to persevere. I got this and for the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I believe in myself. That is priceless. 💓