I have been dealing with a high amount of anxiety lately. I am not sure why that is exactly but I have utilized every coping skill that I know in order to deal with it. I am always under a great deal of stress with my job and my second semester of grad school started this evening so that contributes as well. Additionally, one of my cats is sick and has been for some time so I made the tough decision to have him put down on February 11. I took the entire day off from work to do this and I am dreading it fiercely. I am going alone which terrifies the shit out of me for 2 reasons: 1. I have always had someone else to support me when I have dealt with these types of things and 2. I have the tendency to run from and/or try to escape feeling unpleasant feelings. However I have heard from multiple sources that it's best to lean into these uncomfortable feelings and embrace them because running from them is not healthy and will reappear later in life where you will have to deal with them anyway. I hope I have the strength to do this, I will be praying daily for God to give me enough to make it through this upcoming challenge.
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