During my morning run yesterday, I had a stunning yet logical realization: of all the men who I was insanely attracted to, they all had qualities like my father. Moreover although many of the experiences I had while in relationships with them were unpleasant, they were familiar therefore comfortable. For example, my most recent qualifier was extremely masculine with several addictions and a HUGE anger problem. My father also has all of those same qualities. Matter of fact, in analyzing all of the long term relationships I have had, all of the men shared those same qualities.
With the gift of sobriety and recovery, I have the time and energy to examine all of these relationships and identify the unhealthy qualities and patterns. I cannot possibly articulate how blessed I feel to have been given the gift of recovery. I know I have written variations of that statement multiple times here on my blog but it's so true, I can't help it. 😊
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