Have you ever had the experience of changing so much that you barely recognize yourself? This change can either be positive or negative. I had that experience today and it was immensely positive, powerful, and validating for me.
I happened to run into a past qualifier of mine; one I had an extremely toxic relationship with. I was actually engaged to this man and became pregnant with his child. This relationship was by far the most toxic I have ever had, mainly because this man is a narcissist/sociopath/psychopath/all of the above. Let's put it this way, I have never met anyone so inherently evil in all of my life.
So imagine my delight when I happened to encounter him in the middle of my workday. Of course as soon as he saw me, he had to come over and make small talk which always involves his pathetic attempts at being charming, funny, and impressive.
After our painful interaction, I realized just how much I have changed since my entanglement with him. I have improved almost every single facet of my life which makes me prouder than I ever imagined I would be. Also, this profound change has made me even more aware of what an absolute vile human being he is. I feel blessed everyday that I finally got away from him but no more so than today when I personally witnessed that he is the same creepy and socially awkward person that he ever was. Now the only difference is that he is old therefore his entire shtick is even more cringe worthy. Here's to measurable progress and making enormous positive changes!
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