35 weeks

How ironic that I am going to post the following entry on the 35th week of my sobriety: Addictions are so insidious, they can lay dormant for weeks or even months and then the perfect storm occurs to bring strong cravings back so suddenly that it seems as if you were engaging in acting out just yesterday.
For example, I have done extremely well with my sobriety and recovery. For the most part, I am through active withdrawal and experiencing peace and contentment that eluded me during my days of active addiction. However, I have had the most intense cravings for my most recent qualifier in the past few days and it's so bizarre. Why now, why again when that part of my life is ancient history?
This morning I had such vivid recollections of his physical presence and how I felt when I was with him: his masculinity combined with his height, muscles, chest hair, and large hands drove me wild. It just seems so crappy that the person I have been most attracted to in my life is so toxic for me.
There are 2 reasons that I can think of for these cravings: I have heard that when you are 8-9 months in, you can have recurrent cravings. It's so disturbing. The other reason may be an event taking place in this area this coming weekend that he always attends. Obviously I do not know for sure if he will be attending this year but the fact that he will be fairly near this area is enough to start the cravings, I suppose.