July 17

• JULY 17 •
Then comes the insight that All is God. One still realizes that the world is as it was, but it does not matter, it does not affect one’s faith. — Abraham Heschel

God is not an object to be possessed. As practicing addicts, we tried to possess people and change reality through sex. We needed the illusions of power and control to sustain us. There was no God except ourselves, and secretly we feared there was no one inside of us, only blackness, a void. Step Three replaces the need to possess, the fear, and the void, with faith. When we turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understand God, we experience God. We let go of our self-will, no matter how haltingly, and trust that God will remake us according to spiritual principles. Step Three deepens our commitment to recovery. We put willingness, openness, and honesty in our lives because we need them and because others have said they work. It’s another act of faith. How do we find God? We don’t. When we stop playing God and turn ourselves over to God, God finds us.

Thy will, not mine, be done.