Day #260

Today marks 260 days of recovery from sex and love addiction. I am extremely proud of myself for all I have accomplished especially maintaining celibacy and most recently not engaging in masturbation either. I am working on my sponsor's suggested tasks and once I finish with these hopefully this week, I will begin to work the program with her next week.
I just wanted to write about some realizations I have had since entering program: love is not pain, obsession, fantasy, or denial. My goal has changed from getting into a relationship at all costs with someone whom I am attracted to slowly establishing a healthy partnership where there is mutual love, respect, and trust. The longer I am in program, the more I realize how much patience this will require. However, I want something healthy, real, and true. I am willing to put in the work I need to in order to find this.