Making peace with the past

I am participating in a project where I am asked each week to write about a theme in regards to my past relationship with a sociopath. This project will last 8-10 weeks and I have completed 3 entries thus far. The relationship I am writing about technically ended 8 years ago however I had intermittent contact with him up until 2015. Answering these questions and thinking about my past relationships has made me realize just how many relationships that I have been that were toxic. Matter of fact, all of them were to some degree or another. Along with this fact, I realized last summer that I have never actually been in love with someone either. I do not know what true love looks like or feels like.
While I am sad and disappointed that I wasted so much time on all of these unhealthy entanglements, I am extremely grateful that these unhealthy decisions are behind me and I still have plenty of time to experience what I am sure must be the real beauty of true love.