December Gratitude Post #12

Today I am grateful for the SLAA program. Not only because it has added so much to my life but also because it's a beacon of hope when I start to struggle. Let me explain: tomorrow night is my final class of the semester and as a result, I will have much more free time in the next 3 weeks than I have had in months. So of course where do my thoughts turn as soon as I am not preoccupied with all of the tasks I have been? Yep, you guessed it: MEN!!!
Last night before I went to sleep, I was having thoughts and fantasies that I haven't experienced in months. And these were strong as well, not just fleeting as they have been. Part of the reason for these thoughts is my brain trying to trick me into acting out because it has been so long since I engaged in contact with a man. The other part is that I am anticipating all of this free time that I have coming up and my thoughts automatically go to my addiction.
However, I have decided that I am not going to thwart my hard work and all of my progress. Instead I will start calling into meetings again and work on Step work that was assigned to me by my sponsor months ago. I will contact her to review my Step work and start working my program. Also, I plan to return to church as well as spending time with my son and catching up on books and TV shows. I will relax and enjoy myself WITHOUT engaging in unhealthy behaviors.