Today I am most grateful for the newest milestone that I met today: I have been celibate for a total of 400 days. As I may have mentioned before, this is the longest period of time that I have gone without sex since I lost my virginity 22 years ago. And although I have gone without sex in the past albeit for shorter periods of time, this is the first time that I haven't felt self pity in doing so. Because I am a huge fan of self reflection, I was thinking about my celibacy earlier and pondering how long this new lifestyle of mine will last. I am not sure when God will deem me ready for a healthy and loving partnership however I do know that I will never again settle for the garbage that I did in the past. And forget having sex and throwing myself at men that just used me and treated me like less than pond scum. For the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I value myself and realize that I deserve much more than I ever settled for. That in and of itself is a success.
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