Although I am sure I write this here far too often, today I am grateful for my ongoing recovery from love and sex addiction. It never fails to impress me especially when I reflect on how far I have come. For example, I just reread my blog entry from December 24, 2017 and I decided to post it below in order to compare and contrast:
Sunday, December 24, 2017
Christmas Eve
I am not too sure what to write about this evening. I am feeling rather melancholy. I have also been feeling sorry for myself the past few days. I am not fine: I feel empty, lonely, and sad. My initial urge is to go find a man to help me feel better but I know that truly won't help anything. I also know that I don't like feeling this way and I wonder how much longer I will have to wait before I feel better? This isn't about men or relationships; it never really has been. (Although I thought it was for many, many years.) It is about me never being okay with myself!
Lisa Marie Cook at 10:15 PM
The difference between one year ago and today is staggering! Not only is my mood much better but I feel much more comfortable with being present for myself and valuing the time I spend alone. For example, on this Christmas Eve, I am home alone, listening to Christmas music and wrapping presents. I am feeling content and at peace, with no traces of self pity or sadness. As I sit here this evening, I am reminded of all the blessings in my life that I have been so fortunate for God to grant me. I am so happy that the Lisa from one year ago has been replaced with a person who is satisfied with herself and her life and trusts that things are happening in just the way they were meant to. And that my dear readers is most certainly a Christmas miracle! 😊
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