I define my own worth

With the passage of time, the more I realize how much power and control I gave to others, especially in the area of determining my worth. I would give 100% of the responsibility for my worth to the focus of my addiction. Much of the time, the man seemed to define my worth based on some superficial quality such as my fantastic blowjobs or long, elaborate backrubs. God forbid that I ever did anything to upset the man; my worth in his eyes would drop precipitously and I would be filled with anxiety and self-hatred, waiting for the rejection to happen.
Honestly, I can't believe it's taken me this long to realize that other people can't nor shouldn't define another's worth. Ever since I decided to make my worth come from internal rather than external sources, I have felt a very powerful shift happening in my life. For example, in reflecting on previous relationships, especially my most recent one, I have realized that my ex-boyfriend really lost out on someone special when I left his life. I am intelligent, attractive, funny, motivated, positive, outgoing, caring, and kind as well as many other qualities. In no way am I being egotistical here but he was a loser and I was definitely dating down!!!