October 16

OCTOBER 16
Thou are not idle; in thy higher sphere, thy spirit bends itself to loving tasks. — James Russell Lowell

Since many of us are children of sex addicts, alcoholics, or parents with other addictive or abusive behaviors, we may have learned early in life how to hold back, how to move with caution, how to hedge our bets. We learned, as well, to react instead of act. The bold, well-thought-out action was not for us. We were impulsive. As recovering adults we still learn by watching others, but we don’t need to act like the cautious, yet impulsive child. We can choose to act as adults, deciding when to act and when to wait. There is much to be learned and there are new role models to help us. Our sponsor, healthy friends, and our brothers and sisters in the program are on our side. We can ask questions, bring our fears and concerns out into the open, and trust our ever-growing wisdom. We can be vulnerable and still feel safe.

Today, I will acknowledge my fear if I feel it, reassure the child within me, and Let Go and Let God.