I have not been feeling in the best of moods these past few days and I am not sure why. However, I do know it's getting frustrating and increasingly hard to deal with. For the past 2 Sundays in a row, I have cried when my ex came to pick up my son. And today I noticed that even though I have come so far and I am doing fairly well juggling work, school, and my personal life, I currently do not feel any joy in acknowledging that. I hope to God that the issue is just hormones or something because this is really bringing me down. And of course whenever I feel like this, my go-to thought is of escaping my reality by acting out with a guy. Or binge eating. My knee jerk reaction is always to engage in something that helps to take me out of the present and avoid uncomfortable feelings. Sometimes I just get very discouraged by the constant battle. I will do my best to keep on keeping on.
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