November 25

NOVEMBER 25
Visions for those too tired to sleep. These seeds cast a film over eyes which weep. — Amy Lowell

Many of us have struggled with depression during our lives. Many of us have also felt shame when we were depressed, as if we were lazy or weren’t trying hard enough. But that isn’t true. The causes of depression are complex, and those of us who suffer from it owe it to ourselves to keep searching for relief. As recovering addicts, we long to put all our energy into our new lives. The hopelessness, self-blame, and apathy of depression can be paralyzing and even life-threatening. In recovery, when we need to eliminate stress, depression is a burden we don’t have to carry. Whether our feelings are a result of external circumstances or our body’s chemistry, we can take good care of ourselves. We can feel our anger and sadness. We can seek professional help if necessary. Recovery doesn’t mean an end to suffering, but the program promises this too shall pass. There can be an end to the suffering of depression. We have good reason to hope we will feel joy again.

In my Higher Power’s compassion for my suffering, I find strength and consolation.