I wanted to share the daily meditation from Answers in the Heart from a few days ago because this entry very much resonated with me. Addiction is such a miserable disease and there are days where you feel like your life has turned into a living nightmare. I think many people with this insidious disease have considered suicide as a solution, me included. I thank God everyday that was not the path I was meant to take. I will remain always grateful for my continued recovery and sobriety.
In the darkest hour the soul is replenished and given strength to continue and endure. — Heart Warrior Chosa
In the depths of our addiction to sex, some of us hated ourselves so much that we didn’t believe we deserved to live. Some of us had this idea planted in our minds when we were children. Some of us had lives that didn’t seem worth living. And some of us were suffering so much from our addiction that we were willing to do anything to be rid of it. When things are that hard, some of us turn to thoughts of suicide. How do we go on when we can’t any longer? Very gently. We use everything we can to help us stay alive: the thought of a beloved child, a friendship with a group member, time-out from our normal life, turning ourselves over to our Higher Power. When we feel suicidal, we may not care about anything; we feel alienated and isolated. But we’re not. To even keep breathing connects us to life. And if we open ourselves to the fullness of the moment, from this most basic act our connections expand infinitely. We’ve only to hang on, one minute at a time, and reasons to hope again will come.
My life is precious because it was given to me by my Higher Power, who loves me.
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