One of the hallmarks of recovery in the SLAA program is abstinence from your bottom line behaviors. Everyone's bottom line behaviors always includes no sex and no dating for a prolonged period of time. For me, this has been the hardest but most necessary part of my recovery. Just how hard this has been for me became clear this evening when I was at the gym. There is a man at the gym who looks very much like my latest qualifier which bothers me to say the least. When he walked near me, I had to force myself not to stare at him and not fantasize and reminisce about my qualifier. Blech!!! It's certainly difficult and painful to resist and fight all of these thoughts and cravings. But it does gets easier with time. I am just so grateful that I do not live near my qualifier and will never have to see him again. I will continue to pray to God for strength to get me through.
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