Relationship Inventory

I have been meaning to start my relationship inventory for quite some time now but I haven't done it yet because I never have the time. I realized tonight that I could incorporate it into my blog posts and kill 2 birds with 1 stone. So here it is, my relationship inventory:
My very first serious relationship happened when I was 17 years old. He was 20. My friend set us up as a joke, figuring I would get the punchline as soon as I met him. My self-esteem was paralyzingly low and I didn't get the punchline for many years afterward. Tom had schizophrenia, was not nice looking, smart, popular, funny, or anything else that you look for in a boyfriend. His appearance was odd at best and he was mocked by those who knew him and those who didn't. Like most schizophrenics, he was mostly non-compliant with his medication and other mental health services. He bounced from his adoptive parents' home, to group homes, to briefly living with me, to homelessness all within a short period of time. This man had extremely poor hygiene and in order to tolerate being close to him, I had to make bathing a part of our intimate encounters in order for him to do so. I took personal responsibility for this man for approximately 2 years of my life. I tried to make sure he was housed, fed, and safe during that time. I would skip school to drive him places. I compromised my own dignity and self-respect because I thought at the time that he was the best I could hope for in a romantic partner. I abandoned every moral, lesson, and truth that I had been raised with in order to please this man and make him love me. This was where my love addiction all began....