While I am happy to report that I have maintained my sobriety with my love addiction, I am ashamed and frustrated with how my food addiction had ramped up. The newest battle of my life is binge eating. Because I have been feeling so sluggish and depressed, I blew off the gym tonight and instead opted to eat an entire pizza and a significant amount of ice cream. My mood is now worse than before I started because now I have shame and guilt to boot. *sigh*
On the bright side, there is a prescription drug available to treat binge eating, it's called Vyvanse and I will be seeing my PCP on Friday. I will be requesting it, I feel like an utter failure. I guess I need to keep praying for guidance and support.
Tuesday, February 6, 2018
Multiple Addictions
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Sometimes I think it is best to eliminate one demon at a time. I believe doing that makes the others go away in time. After reading your blogs, I think you want constant companionship and this is what causes the drinking, the need to feel numb from the embarrassment and low self esteem. If you abstain from sex the alcohol use will likely decrease. Those turn of events will make you feel better about yourself. I believe you are on the right track with prayer and the need for God in your life. The food thing may be from an abusive childhood (sexual or otherwise.) Keep fighting hard and be proud of your accomplishments also don't be too hard on yourself if you stumble at times either. Nobody is perfect and God loves us all the same. He gave you life and then also gave your son life. You said in another blog that you believe everything happens for a reason, I 100 percent agree with that. We have a destination planned for us, but the road can be damn Rocky or in McKean co. Huge Holes. Lol. Prayers for you in your ongoing struggles. 🙂🙂
ReplyDeleteThank you for your support. However I don't drink and I was never abused as a child, sexually or otherwise.
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