As the title says, sobriety can be a struggle. I have been struggling to maintain my sobriety for the past 2 weeks, ever since I began taking Topamax. That frustrates me to no end but that is a topic for a different blog. I feel restless, needy, horny, lonely, and like I need to find some way to let out all of this pent up energy. The best and only way I have ever done so is by acting out. The cravings that I have had in the past few days for my latest qualifier have been strong, intense, painful, and relentless. I continue to pray to God but I am becoming discouraged, hopeless, and scared. I am not sure if these feelings are normal at this stage of my recovery or if they are a direct result of my Topamax. Regardless, I am hoping that things will start looking up soon. I will continue to pray.
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