Update

So I have some pretty damn fantastic news: my doctor took me off of that damn devil medication (Topamax)! I cannot tell you how ecstatic I am. I get my memory, brain, vocabulary, and sense of peace about my abstinence back. I am also hoping that the obsessions that I had been having about my latest qualifier will also subside. Part of the reason I was on Topamax was for mood stabilization, instead my doctor put me on gabapentin which I have taken before. This is such a relief to me because Topamax made me feel hopeless, negative, and depressed and I don't like feeling that way anymore.
In other news, there was a great reading in my meeting tonight. It was about sober dating and some of the boundaries that should be set in healthy relationships. I will definitely be buying that pamphlet before I start dating again. I have felt very good about things today; I am extremely proud of myself and my progress with recovery from this horrible disease. And next Tuesday marks 4 months since I last had contact with my qualifier. Go me!!! 😁😊