Today is day #186 of my sobriety and this morning I had quite the epiphany. I reinstalled Google Allo on my phone last night. Last summer, I chatted on this app with my latest qualifier. When I reinstalled, our entire conversation was there. I took the time to read over most of it and 2 things struck me. For 1 thing, I didn't have those feelings of desperate longing like I would have in the past. Moreover, while reading, I saw this man's selfishness and narcissism like I never could when I was in the situation. And to think that I thought I was in love with this dangerous person. I have come so far in the last 186 days, I can only imagine what the next 186 days will be like!!
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