I have developed a very effective and positive coping skill recently: whenever I find myself fantasizing and/or thinking about my latest qualifier, I remind myself of how much more peaceful my life is without my addiction. While acting out was exciting and sometimes energizing, it also made me full of anxiety and always involved a huge letdown after the encounter or liaison was over. Some of my highest highs were experienced when I was enroute to acting out; on the flip side, some of my lowest lows were experienced upon leaving the location of acting out. The high levels of anxiety that I experienced as a result of my addiction were absolutely obscene. Matter of fact, my PCP prescribed anxiety medication for me due to the anxiety that I was experiencing during these "relationships". I have not once taken this medication since beginning my recovery. Hallelujah.
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