Lately I have been having a lot of obsessive fantasies about my latest qualifier. This has been bothersome to me because they are upsetting, triggering, and still cause a sexual response from me. They usually happen right before bed which then makes me dream of him so the next morning, I feel like I had just been with him. I am sure there are many reasons why this is happening but part of it is due to unresolved issues with my dad. I know that daddy issues are so cliche but that's absolutely what's going on here. While my dad was present and fulfilled our basic needs of food, shelter, etc. he was not emotionally available and he wasn't very protective of me either. Not surprisingly all of the men I have chosen as partners have all been the same. I am used to and feel comfortable with men treating me this way. While it's not healthy, it's what I know. So this could help explain some of my obsessive thoughts about my latest qualifier. At the very least, he was emotionally unavailable and not protective although he claimed he would be at the beginning of our relationship. The best lessons are learned the hard way!
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