I am really not sure how I am feeling tonight. I had been feeling great all weekend long then my ex came to pick up my son and I am not sure what happened but I started to feel really down. Today was a fast day which I was doing really well with until my son left. Then I abandoned the rest of my plans for the day and had a small binge session. Afterward I felt shameful and frustrated plus I still felt down. Then everything has sort of dissolved into a shit show ever since. Self-pity, sadness, loneliness, missing my qualifier (of course), anger and frustration that I am here alone and feeling crappy when there are so many millions of people out there who are feeling happy and content. Did my son leaving trigger feelings of abandonment? Wtf is going on? I don't get it. Thank God I have a meeting in a few minutes!
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