2 milestones and a look back

Today I celebrate not just one milestone but two! Today is both the 280th day and 40th week of my sobriety. I need to be writing about my progress because I have been missing my addiction the past few days. Mainly I miss physical contact and intimacy with another person. This has manifested itself in vivid dreams and intense physical craving and longing, needless to say, it's certainly been a challenge.
In order to help me gain some much needed perspective, I wanted to talk about my journal entry from 1 year ago. My journal details how ecstatically over the moon I was because my most recent qualifier had told me that he loved me via text message. His exact words were: " Lisa, I f*$#ing love you". Turns out, he was drunk when he sent it. A few hours after the text was sent, he drove drunk to my home from Buffalo. A 75 mile drive. Once he arrived, he proceeded to take me to my bedroom where he was sweet, sensual, and passionate and looked me in the eye right before we began to have sex and told me he loved me again. 10 hours later he was traveling back to Buffalo because he "had to get back for his son". Later on that afternoon, he agreed that we should become "Facebook official". At this point, I had known him for a total of 2 months. How special I felt that he went through all of this trouble just to come see me and how romantic I thought he was by telling me he loved me right before sex AND while looking me in the eye. After all, if you look someone in the eye, that means you are not lying and what you speak is the truth, right?! Come on, right?!?!
You're not even close, darling. Not even close.....