Melancholy and masturbation

Lately I have been struggling with a sense of melancholy and I can't pinpoint why. I do know that I have felt much more tired than I normally do and according to my Fitbit, that's because I have been getting less sleep. Lol. Perhaps part of the melancholy is due to lack of sleep but I am not sure that's the only reason. Because I can't determine a cause, I will just have to wait until it subsides.
In masturbation news, I have decided that I need that in my life. I have never excessively masturbated so there's that. Plus I am being mindful while masturbating not to engage in fantasies or watching porn. I am placing my entire focus on myself and the present. I made this decision on Saturday and the orgasm that I gave myself in 20 seconds was so intense and powerful, it made my eyes water! Welcome back, my dear friend, welcome back! I had noticed that my horniness was increasing to what I felt was an unsafe level so I decided to take matters into my own hands to alleviate the problem. 😉