Saturday, August 11, 2018

The positive results keep coming!

Last night I went out with college/work friends and it was quite an interesting night, to say the least. For one thing, I got completely drunk which was fun at the time but not fun this morning. Anyone who is a sex and love addict knows how hard it is to maintain sobriety while drinking in a bar, especially surrounded by people you are attracted to.
With all of that being said, I can honestly say that last night was the first time I have gone out and gotten trashed and not made numerous unhealthy decisions. There was an attractive guy sitting at my table who offered me his vape. I asked if it had nicotine in it and when he said it did, I politely declined. Before my recovery, I would have taken what was offered even if I hated myself for it later. The purpose of that would be to make a man like you. Um yeah, that doesn't work and my actions finally reflect self-respect and pride in myself.
Another situation happened as well. A very attractive bearded man asked if I would come home with him and his girlfriend. I told him that I deserve more than being second best and I wasn't interested. The conversation spiraled out of control, as it often does in bars at 1:30am. At one point, I told him to get fucked. Thankfully my friend was there to de-escalate the situation.
In summary, I am extremely proud of myself for maintaining self-respect and being true to myself. I did not break any of my bottom lines and I stood up for myself. I think all in all, the night was a smashing success!

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