Friday, August 3, 2018

Renewed relationships with myself and others

While I was brushing my teeth this evening, I was thinking about how much my relationships with loved ones have improved since my recovery began. Moreover, the more recovery time I have behind me, the stronger those relationships get.
A prime example of this is my relationship with my mother. Last summer, during a period of my most active addiction, my mom and I took a road trip to Michigan. It was a complete and unmitigated disaster. We bickered and fought during various times of the trip, saying some vicious, nasty, and hurtful things to one another. But the worst was yet to come: the drive home. We got into our biggest and nastiest fight of all time. Matter of fact, we went several weeks without even speaking to one another.
Today our relationship is the strongest and closest that it has ever been and the only thing that has changed is that I am now in recovery. Neither of our personalities or personal characteristics have undergone a drastic change in the past year. Nor has anything else happened that could have changed things so dramatically. I was always on edge when I was acting out: irritated, anxious, miserable, and difficult to be around. I am now fully present in my relationships with those that mean the most to me including my mom, son, and best friend. I also have much more energy to devote to my job, hobbies, and other passions. I thank God everyday that He brought SLAA into my life; without this wonderful program, I shudder to think about where I could have ended up or what I would have became.

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