10 months sober!!!

Today marks 10 months of sobriety from love and sex addiction. I can scarcely believe it; sometimes it seems like the 10 months have gone very quickly, sometimes slowly. However, time did march on, which is one of the keys to getting and staying sober from any addiction. Knowing that the horrific pain in the beginning will not last forever and trust that one day, you will feel better than you have in your entire life are 2 more thoughts that can help as well.
Now that I am 10 months in, I can see things much more clearly than before. For example, I thought that when I was acting out, I was truly alive and living. Now I can see the sober reality: I was acting out in order to escape my daily stressors of life and hide from unresolved childhood traumas that had never been dealt with prior. Also, in all of my excitement during my acting out time, I never realized the paralyzing anxiety that accompanied my acting out, both before and after getting a "hit" of my addiction.
Today I admit that while I am sometimes lonely and miss companionship and human physical touch, that pales in the comparison to how much relief I feel not having to deal with that heavy burden of ever-present anxiety.
I am so grateful to God for leading me to recovery and helping me to learn, one day at a time, to love and value myself.