The NFL and nagging thoughts

Well, I made it through the second week of my ever so challenging combo, the work/school thing. And I am still alive with all of my to-do tasks completed thus far. So I would say this week has been a success, which is a miracle given how I was feeling this past Tuesday and Wednesday. It was really bizarre, I felt unmoored almost, totally not like myself at all. I had very negative feelings about everything and I was experiencing a great deal of emotional turmoil even though nothing major happened.
In the spirit of honesty though, I did have cravings for my addictions this week, particularly my man craving. I felt that familiar urge to just run away from all of my responsibilities and numb myself out in the fantasies/arms of a man whom I find attractive. But of course I didn't. I just find it quite fascinating that is my go-to urge almost every single time I am going through stress. Oh, and I also have determined over the past few days that one of my triggers is NFL football. Yet another oddity, I am sure. However, football is comprised of men playing and is tied in with past qualifiers of mine, some of who loved it. My most recent qualifier really got into it which I think is why I was triggered by the mention of it this week. More objectifying and fantasizing about physical qualities while not focusing on what truly matters, which is what's inside!