Milestones, doubts, and renewal

Well, I have quite a bit to share this evening. First of all, I did not end up going out dancing this evening like I planned; my son is sick therefore I did what a good parent would do and stayed home. Also, I wanted to share 3 milestones that I have met in my recovery from love and sex addiction. Today is day #320 since I last had contact with my latest qualifier and 323 days since I last had sex. The last one I am the proudest of: tomorrow it will be 1 year that I have officially been single. September 23, 2017 was easily one of the worst of my life, not because of the loss of my qualifier necessarily but because of the strength of my addiction to him and the subsequent pain of my withdrawal. I am so glad it's been a year and that horrible period of my life is in the past. Also, I am pretty pumped that it's been a year since I've officially had a boyfriend. This is the longest and happiest time I have ever been alone in my life and I am grateful for that. Now it will be another 6 weeks before I can say that it's been a full year since I acted out but that will be here before I know it.
This past week at work was extremely difficult and has been eroding my confidence and sense of peace. Also, I have monthly hormonal things going on too which always messes with my confidence and sense of peace so needless to say, I haven't been feeling the greatest in the past few days. This evening, I decided to call into a SLAA meeting for the first time in several weeks and I am so ecstatic that I did. Hearing the experience, strength, and hope from women who get it and have been or are where I am never ceases to give me peace and hope that I can do this.  Moreover, the meeting reaffirmed the fact that I am lovable and valuable just the way I am. My job, boss, nor the way that some of my clients treat me will ever change that. One day at a time, never give up!