Saturday, September 8, 2018

Pathological vs. "Normal"

It's been several days since I had the time to call into a SLAA meeting therefore this evening, I did. I thought it would help me because I have been having some cravings lately. Specifically, cravings for a man and sex. So this got me to thinking: what is "normal" sexual desire and horniness and where does that turn into something more pathological,  morphing into sex addiction?
Since I have been in recovery, I have talked to many people about my addiction and many men have told me that it doesn't seem like a problem; they would love to have a woman who desired sex all the time. And maybe that was part of my problem, I have always been insanely attracted to men who only showed me affection PART of the time. Moreover, the ones that have held the most powerful and toxic attraction for me were the ones who made it crystal clear that they really were crazy for someone else.
So tonight I have questions: will I ever find a man that will drive me crazy as much as I do him? Will my sex drive match his and will our sex lives be as magical as those that I have thought I had in the past? Will I ever be able to distinguish "normal" sexual feelings from those of addiction? Time will tell.

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