Day 300

Today is a pretty major milestone: 300 days of sobriety! I know that I say I am proud of all my milestones but with each subsequent one, I feel more pride. Additionally, day #300 means that I am only 65 days away from completing one entire year of not acting out.
My recovery has changed my life in so many ways but the 2 most important are the way I see myself and the fact that I am able to remain fully in the present and enjoy it, without repeatedly drifting off into fantasy.
Obviously it's important to think highly of yourself because if you don't, you are vulnerable to toxic people taking advantage of you. Plus you get what you tolerate; if you do not truly love yourself, other people will sense that and treat you with the same disrespect that you display towards yourself.
Remaining in the present has been a wonderful gift to myself and family/friends. My life has been so much more rewarding and fulfilling by giving my full attention to those that matter the most to me. I think the person that has benefitted the greatest from my renewed focus is my son. I am far more available to him, both emotionally and mentally, than I ever was during my periods of acting out. God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams with the gift of recovery and seeing my life for what it used to be. Not only that, I now know what I would not want my life to return to. And that alone is an invaluable realization.