I have no idea what's going on with me but I have been in a pretty black mood since last night. I thought going back to my regular routine today would help me feel better but I was wrong. I felt increasingly stressed out and overwhelmed at work and by the end of the day, I had enough and missed my Monday night dance class. Then I came home to binge. I didn't jeopardize my recovery by reaching out to my qualifier but I have been thinking of him often. And of course this nice fantasy keeps repeating in my head: if he would have loved me and we were together now, I wouldn't be feeling like this. I can recognize that thought as a fantasy now unlike in the past. And the reality is that if I were with him now, I would be feeling even worse than I currently do. I hope this realization brings me a modicum of comfort this evening because I sure need it!
Just remember that your fantasies will eventually come true when you meet the right person. They may not be exactly as we dream them to be, but the reality may be far better than our fantasies ever were.Have faith and stay as strong as you can. There will be failures along the way, but that's what makes us human. Try to learn from the mistakes, it's not easy I know. Have a nice night and remember it's ok to make mistakes at times. Prayers for you. 🙂
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