Well, here I am, laying in a bed in downtown Buffalo. The first day of Nickel City is behind me with one day and 2 nights left to go. Honestly today was better than I thought it would be. As expected, I have had numerous thoughts and cravings for my most recent qualifier BUT these weren't as painful as I expected them to be. Yes, they were painful but they didn't hold me hostage for the entire day or make me paralyzed or unproductive. I did experience some euphoric recall but nothing worse than usual. I did have some fleeting fantasies about contacting him to meet up and have sex but of course these fantasies were not realistic nor would I ever act on them. That's one helpful thing that I have learned about sobriety thus far: just because you have thoughts or cravings doesn't mean you have to act upon them. If you're patient and sit with those feelings, they will dissipate eventually. One day at a time, I can maintain sobriety.
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