Day 170

Well, today marks day #170 of NC/sobriety. Which also means that it has been 173 days since I last had sex. I am extremely proud of my accomplishment and how much progress I have made in my recovery.
Today during my session with my therapist, I realized something pretty eye opening: I have never lived my life in order to please myself. I have always lived my life in order to please other people, more specifically men. With this realization, I need to discover what I like and what makes me happy. I feel as if I have been slowly discovering these things in the past almost 6 months.
I have been in a pretty awesome mood today. It also helps that I will be going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow for the first time in many years. I hope to get clarification on my diagnoses as well. Wish me luck!