Overwhelmed

I am so overwhelmed this evening. I have been struggling with withdrawal for the past few days. For whatever reason, I am fiercely missing my qualifier. Or missing acting out in my addiction. I am not sure.
I need to admit complete and utter powerlessness. I need to pray and lean on God every single minute of every single day. I need to beg Him to grant me patience and the strength to work towards healing and recovery.
I want to pray for a sense of hope for the future which I have been struggling to feel. I want to pray for help in this program because lately I have realizedjust how sick I am. And I am truly terrified by this realization.