Thank God for my addiction!!!

This is an odd post because I wouldn't normally feel gratitude for an addiction but tonight I do.
I feel the need to thank God for my addiction. For you see, if not for it, I would have never found the way back to myself. Every single weakness I had regarding my feelings for myself and how I viewed and took care of myself was put in the spotlight during my latest "relationship". How little I respected and loved myself came out over and over again with every boundary I allowed him to break, every cruel thing he did or said with no repercussions, every single time I put him and his needs before myself and my needs. Every single time I talked to him or saw him, I sold myself out. I abandoned myself for him. Every. Single. Damn. Time. No more. Never again.