Counting

I have made it a point to count the days since contact with my latest dose of "pure heroin".  I have been stringent about this because it's so important to me. Do you think it's necessary to do?
I certainly do! Watching those days add up, week by week, means something to me: freedom from my addiction and a restoration of my relationship with myself. Counting is a way to congratulate yourself and actually see how far you have come!
Here's my newest number: 6 weeks. That's the length of time since I last saw my "pure heroin". 6 Thursdays ago, I was getting ready to see HIM and descend into the madness that was our "relationship".
Do I miss the guy? I do, the physical attraction was magical to me. Do I miss the madness, lack of control, and compromising of my self-respect? Hell no!!!