Resilience

I was discussing addiction with someone today and truly realized for the first time how many times you have to try to give up your addiction before you are finally able to. For example, I was a half-assed smoker on and off for 10 years. It took me at least 3 attempts to quit cigarettes permanently.
The 2 addictions that cause me the most problems are love addiction (duh) and food. For the past 20 years, I have unconsciously been drawn to toxic relationships with people who I never should have even been friends with, let alone dated. This knowledge has been eye-opening. In all honesty, I feel so sad that I wasted all of that precious time with people who didn't have the capability or desire to appreciate me and what I have to offer.