Value

I have been thinking this evening about how my qualifier has been the latest lesson of my life. Just the most recent guy where I waited for him to see how much value I have and treat me accordingly. The problem was that I never realized my own value so there was no way that anyone else could either. I am in a great deal of pain tonight because I am obsessing and comparing and wishing things could have been different and that he would have wanted me and chose me. But the truth is that I truly wouldn't want to be chosen by him. He is a bad person so being chosen by him means less than nothing. However one thing that I must realize and give myself credit for, especially during times like tonight where I am struggling is this: I am identifying, validating, and reaffirming my value every damn day that I do not speak to that emotional vampire. It's been 54 days, I refuse to give up or look back!!!