Fear

Fear is something that I have been thinking alot about today. This is because I am scared to death of making this much needed change. I am filled with fear at the thought of facing life and all of my childhood issues without the promise of a relationship for me to fall back on when it starts to hurt. I am filled with fear at the thought of navigating this life alone, without a partner. My only true partner will be myself who, if I am being honest here, I don't even truly know nor know if I can trust. Some scary stuff indeed!
Today is day #35 of NC, 5 weeks....one important reason why I have not run back to who broke me is my job and my intended career. In order to help people drag themselves out of unhealthy and toxic relationship patterns, I first must drag myself out of my own!