Ughhh, every month, I get extremely emotional, depressed, and moody. I suppose most women could say that. However the symptom that I have that bothers me the most is feeling sorry for myself! It's really brutal and doesn't help me at all; it just makes me feel worse about myself. For example, my department at work had their Christmas get-together tonight. Every person that came had a partner that they discussed at some point during the evening except me and another woman. I did my best to participate, talk, and laugh and I truly did have an enjoyable time. However I couldn't stop the self pity from coming. How lucky those people are who have partners that they are actually happy with?! I guess I have always wanted to feel like I "belong" with someone, like it's me and him against the world. Like he would always have my back because I am his "girl". I wonder if I will ever heal enough and do enough work on myself that I will have that one day?
No comments:
Post a Comment